until the night before last night have i realized there are some relevant people around me have their own life and...why are they close to me yet so far from my life and my understanding/
with simba that night as usual. it is not that i don't want to try other drinks, but i just can't help ordering Long Island Iced Tea (Vodka, Gin, Rum, Tequila, Cointreau, Coke）every time, it s kind of strong but under my control. that is good. i seldom finish it. i am not a alcohole person.
i went there...many years ago, and totally forget this place.
i wanna see this effect wherever i go.
the food is......really really good. the soap...really really good.
the pose of the cork。
well again this is me...i enjoy daubing the lips with silver and golden color...well u can't c it clearly.
next day got a real sunflower. S got me three 2years go. this is much much better than roses....
say sth else.
i love to ask people what do they think my shortcomings/disadvantages/faults.. are.
this is not a question, it usually makes me not really happy or confident or even change my view towards or changing my good feelings towards that person. but i still have to do it. and i keep doing it.
from a person's angle towards me, i could more deeply know what kind of person he is.
simba thought i am not that beautiful, i am too aggressive, i am too...proud...peacockery，vanity－desired...etc.
i know i am nothing, i always know. but that is really interesting a very good friend treat me as afar from my self acknowledgment. and maybe, most possibably, there are still lot of ones think the same way. that is fine. at least i know more ... information.
i talked with pc the other day, he is moving back to GZ, we shall have more conversation about some interesting topics then...amazing.
wish i had a good dream of painting...over and over again.