F told me about her stupid dumb b.
i felt...i might react in another way.....i felt....her b is actually fair... yet...she insist her rules like i did before.
when did i begin to lose my rules?
i hate myself.
hate myself to death.
i won't lose the balance anymore.
i don't think i did. but there are some moments, of course, blind my heart. and the string of danger kept tempting me.
i m crazy.
coffee saves me.
but i drink too much...i couldn't control myself.
i need it even it hurts my breast and ruin my health.